the one about Dreams

So much has happened. I feel so cool to be in Los Angeles, no longer a student, living the dream.

Then again, nothing's happened, really.

It's weird--making this transition where, after 18 years of my life being filled with classes, I no longer have to be in school. After 2 1/2 years of my spiritual life being largely invested in AGO and USC's spiritual well-being, I no longer have that to pour into. After several years of studying acting, I'm now out in the industry. And after roughly 7 years of working, my only job right now is finding a job.

However, I now have an agent. ...Finally. Not just one that's representing me commercially, but theatrically too. One that's SAG/AFTRA franchised.

I also have put in probably about fifteen job applications at different places nearby, have had interviews at two different places and have a second interview at one of them tomorrow.

Plus, this weekend, I was the personal PA (production assistant) to the director of the musiCares benefit concert at the LA Convention Center--which allowed me industry experience and the privilege to be in the presence of music legends/greats like Neil Young, Sheryl Crow, Keith Urban, the Red Hot Chili Peppers, Josh Groban, Tony Bennett, Lady Antebellum, Elton John, etc.

And I ordered new headshots.

So, steps in the right direction. Even though I don't feel like I've hit any real mile markers yet.

I guess I'm just coming to realize how much of the dream is me, working. I mean, Dad often says, "You can't do God's part, and He won't do your part." I just feel as though I've been working and waiting forever.

My friend slash fellow dancer, Kristy Cavinder, became the 1st runner-up in the Miss America pageant last night. She was sensational. Gorgeous. She's got amazing grades (as a pre-med student, not the easiest!), wants to be a pediatric heart surgeon, is the most spectacular ballet dancer I've ever personally seen, has loads of poise and self-confidence, and loves Jesus.

But she didn't win.

All that homework and practice and performing and studying and more practice.

And she hasn't... "arrived."

And that's a good thing. How sad would it be to have arrived at age 21? Where's the rest of one's life go?

So, good for her... and good for me, too. Pastor Matthew said today, "The only way to have longevity in your dream is to have confidence in the God of your dream." We constantly work and strive to protect and achieve our dreams, but the destination will never be reached and the journey's gonna pretty much suck without our confidence resting in Him.

Only

in

Him.

A mere mortal

From the City of Angels

Livin his dream